For so long, drinking and using was the only solution I had to all of my problems. It provided me with a temporary relief from the pain, grief and shame I hated so much to feel. Eventually my life became completely unmanageable trying to maintain my addiction. And still the only solution I could come up with was more alcohol and more drugs to distract myself from the prison I created.
And that’s all my addiction was. Merely a distraction. Not a solution. Today I have found a solution that I can live in daily. And it’s so much better than living in that daily distraction.
In my life
I remain stagnant.
Because I am afraid to move forward
That’s the way I choose to have it.
In my addiction, thus far,
I have decided to stay.
Because avoiding my problems
Has been the easiest way.
To ensure my feelings
I do not have to feel,
And pretend the issues of life
Aren’t actually real.
