Poems of a Recovering Addict: A letter from my daughter

When Kelsey Yost was still deep in her addiction, it was her daughter who often was forgotten. Kelsey wrote this poem as she began to grapple with recovery.

Dear Mommy,

I thought you had forgotten me

After I came with Grammy, you’d go weeks without calling me

But I started to miss you even before I left

I’d miss you and worry when I couldn’t wake you up

How I’d play and color, get bored and stay hungry until lunch

When you woke up, I was always so happy until I realized you weren’t really getting up for me

It wasn’t until your friend stopped by that you even really noticed me

I’d eat, play, or watch tv

And wait til you came out of the bathroom to finally spend some time with me

It started to make me think you never really wanted me

That you cared for me only because you had to 

And inside there was no love for me

But Grammy has taught me that this is the way your sickness made you act

And you’re getting better so you can properly care for me

I love you no matter what

And I know your sickness just made your love for me hard to see

I can’t wait until I can come back home 

So we can show each other just how much we both have grown

From,

Your daughter who loves you unconditionally

Kelsey Yost

Poetry found its way into Kelsey Yost’s life from a young age, often providing clarity and understanding for a life riddled with drugs and addiction. 

As a child, Kelsey was introduced to drug and alcohol through her parents. Years of struggle, including the death of her mother and father, made turning to drugs and alcohol more appealing and an easy form of escape. Years were spent in and out of jail, as relationships were strained and Kelsey lost custody of her daughter. But through it all was poetry. 

At 26, Kelsey went to rehab and on Jan. 16, 2020 celebrated a year of sobriety. She now uses poetry to share her journey of recovery and to tell others “You are not alone.” 

Kelsey Yost

Poetry found its way into Kelsey Yost’s life from a young age, often providing clarity and understanding for a life riddled with drugs and addiction.  As a child, Kelsey was introduced to drug and alcohol through her parents. Years of struggle, including the death of her mother and father, made turning to drugs and alcohol more appealing and an easy form of escape. Years were spent in and out of jail, as relationships were strained and Kelsey lost custody of her daughter. But through it all was poetry.  At 26, Kelsey went to rehab and on Jan. 16, 2020 celebrated a year of sobriety. She now uses poetry to share her journey of recovery and to tell others “You are not alone.” 

1 Comment
  1. So proud of you, Kelsey, you’ve come so far!! It’s so difficult to not only admit this to the world, but to yourself. You are a beacon!

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